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Recently, I lost someone I love very much. My boyfriend Jacob, at only 38 years old, died on October the 2nd of this year, after a brief battle with severe cirrhosis of the liver. A heavy drinker most of his life, he was diagnosed just a month before. During the last month of his life, we shared so many things. He had regrets - many of them tied to using alcohol to feel better and relieve the stress in his life. It took him facing death to come to the realization that his actions not only cost him his own life, but also would deeply affect all of us who loved him so dearly. A strong, good-hearted man and counselor who devoted his life to helping the mentally ill, he spent his time addressing other's problems instead of his own, and in the end it cost us all so much...
If you drink, or have any such addiction, try to remember that the choices we make in our lives affect not only ourselves, but are rather like throwing a large rock into a still pool...the ripples go outward.
His son Trevor wrote this poem in tribute to his dad. I post it here with Trevor's permission. I hope it will serve as some testimony or maybe encouragement for anyone who has an addiction to get help as soon as possible - not for just their own sake, but for that of their family. Don't rationalize and say you'll have time later - because you may not.
Nobody loves me like my daddy.
Daddy, Daddy
You’re the man.
I want to be like you some day.
You didn’t have to drink your life away.
Everyone laughs at me
When I cry on the bus you see.
But I don’t care ‘cause you cry too
And you’re my dad and you’re not blue.
We miss you
Dad.
I’m really sad
You had to die
Without saying bye;
It makes me cry.
My brother does not know
About you Daddy.
You should have stayed
So we could have played.
I miss you Dad.
Sometimes I’m mad.
God is real
But it is a big deal.
Everyone says to forget about you.
Why are they not blue?
I have no clue.
I still miss you
And I always do.
The End
